Binge Eating

Good Evening Divas,

I hope everyone had a lovely weekend! I, on the contrary, had a mess of a time! It's always extremes with me! As you all know, I've been contemplating diets and really trying to plan out stuff! Well there's good and bad news. 

First, let's get the ugly out of the way. I ate pretty poorly for the past few days. As mentioned, when I weighed myself on Saturday, I had not gained the weight, and I remained at 160.6/8 lbs. I had a bit of a bingeing episode yesterday, and ate the most I have in a REALLY long time-thousands of calories. I fear that I've developed Binge Eating Disorder as it's near impossible to control and it happens regularly. (I mean how many people do you know that can gain 40 lbs in 6 months?) Well, I weighed myself today and in the matter of one day, I went all the way up to 166 lbs!!!! 5 pounds in ONE DAY! Wowie!

Now about the good! I've decided on my diet! I'm going to try to stick to weight watchers starting tomorrow all through to September. I think that due to the comments you've all left, you collectively think it's the most effective, realistic, attainable, and safe! Starting tomorrow morning, I'm going to take pictures of everything I eat! 

By the way to be honest, after this morning's weigh in, I'm feeling super down! I can't help but feel ashamed, hopeless, and embarrassed. My weight is becoming mortifying. I look so stocky for someone of only 5'2". Also, I'm SO young that it must seem unfortunate. Next, I'm obsessed with fashion and I currently fit into nothing, not to mention I look awful in clothing right now. With the heat, I need to wear less clothing, and I feel ashamed. Lastly, I'm starting to feel real physical symptoms like achy stomach, severe bloating, tightness in my skin, rubbing arms and thighs, and tendonitis!

Two quick questions:

1. Do you have anything you could share about Weight Watchers, including links?

2. Would you prefer all my food pictures in one big post at night or whenever I eat it, upload it in separate posts?

XOXO Diet Diva!

Food Paparazzi!

By the way, starting tomorrow, I'm going to begin to take pictures of everything that I eat and post them on this site. I think that this will make me more aware and conscience of what I plan to eat. I think that it will also encourage a structure in my eating habits. I want to try to stick to eating meals rather than picking all day. I hope you enjoy seeing what I eat! I'm rather serious about losing the weight now! 

Unfortunately for the next 12 days, you all will witness the budget and limits of college dining! Prepare your eyes for Tupperware used as bowls and lots of disposable stuff! Also, the dishes will be non-complex and take about 5 minutes to make! 

I can't wait to be home and be able to: go to the grocery store, eat out of something that breaks when you drop it, eat at a table like a civilized human-being, and use something to make my meals other than a MICROWAVE!